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...musings of a mechanically depressed robot...
I'll live!
I've not been well again.  I am cursed with not just ill health - but bizarre ill health.

Early last week my ribs hurt.  (There's this pain down my right side...) it hurt when I sneezed, when I coughed, when I belched! it hurt to breathe.  I put this down to a rather violent bout of coughing - I've have a cough since my cold the week before.

It also hurt when I rolled onto my right side during sleep.  Unfortunately that's the side I always sleep on... so I kept waking up during the night.  Now pain doesn't bother me that much, but lack of sleep does... so I started to hit the pain killers in a big way just before bed.

On Thursday I started to feel breathless.  just walking down the stairs - or the short distance from the station to work and I was panting.  The panting hurt because my ribs were sore - I felt like crap... so I called my doctor for an appointment.  They have a posh automated "press 1 for this" type thing which informed me that I could not make an appointment until 12:00.  I waited until 12:00 when I was told by an actual human that the first available slot was 17:00 Monday evening.  I was kinda hoping for something sooner - so the helpful receptionist said I could come in Monday morning... she also told me if I thought it was that urgent I should go to the hospital.

Now I hate hospital more than I hate the doctors - so I though about just hanging on over the weekend and going to the doc's first thing Monday.

Thursday evening I was feeling a lot worse... and the walk home from the station was a nightmare.  It seemed every 5 steps was enough to wipe me out - I was panting in shallow breaths and I wondered if I might actually die.  - That's not hyperbole - I really did wonder if I was going to drop dead on the way home... it was very scary.  I toyed with the idea of calling an ambulance... it was cold out and sitting out waiting for it to arrive seemed stupid to me... so I decided I'd call from home.

When I got home, and sat down a lot of the panting disappeared.  The pain was still there - but the fear of dying was gone.

I decided to wait until the morning and go to the hospital - I know this may sound stupid - but my dislike of hospitals is very nearly greater than my fear of death.

Friday I woke late (because I turned the alarm off) and was feeling a lot better... but I was still a little spooked from the night before - so I took a trip to A&E and got myself checked out.  I'm glad I did - my "friends" had put a whole bunch of fears into my head - from pneumonia to heart attacks!  After spending what seems like the entire day waiting for various tests I found my chest is clear - I have no broken rib bones and the stuff around my ribs is not swollen.  I am healthy(!) except I am still a little wheezy.

I got a prescription for drugs... and I was told that my breathlessness is "probably" down to an infection.  - Infection unknown - But my lungs are clear.  I despair at our health system at times!

The rest of the weekend was spent doing exactly sod all.  I washed not a single dish or item of clothing.  The floors didn't get swept, mopped or vacuumed.  I have just a couple of days worth of clothes ready - so I need to get my ass in gear tonight I guess.

I did watch a shocking amount of TV and films.  I treated myself with the little left of my bonus after the debts are cleared.  I purchased 10 DVD's - average cost £3. :)  now that is a bargain!  'Tis a shame that about half of them are not from Amazon itself so I had add almost £10 postage to the bill... but that's still not bad.

Current Location: EC2Y 9AQ
Current Mood: drained drained
Current Music: Erasure - Chorus

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From: faith__eternal Date: January 29th, 2007 02:33 pm (UTC) (Link)
Yikes!!! Glad to hear you're getting better:)
paranoidandroid From: paranoidandroid Date: January 29th, 2007 06:06 pm (UTC) (Link)
Ta :)
teya_uk From: teya_uk Date: January 29th, 2007 02:58 pm (UTC) (Link)
I said maybe pulled muscle .. not so scary?

Play.com .. no postage & packing charge ...

Hope you feel better soon xxx
paranoidandroid From: paranoidandroid Date: January 29th, 2007 06:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
I said "friends" ... you're a friend ;)
teya_uk From: teya_uk Date: January 30th, 2007 10:22 am (UTC) (Link)
brightspot From: brightspot Date: January 29th, 2007 03:00 pm (UTC) (Link)

Is it just me, or does the answer more often than not these days tend to be, "It's an infection of some kind...we know not what." It is their job to stay on top of these things, isn't it? It's not as though you and I walk around with a big book, something like a Pokedex, scanning and storing information about every virus we happen to encounter in the world, we have no idea what's wrong with us or what to expect from it. One would think a doctor would, tho.

Honestly. I am glad you're feeling better, tho!
paranoidandroid From: paranoidandroid Date: January 29th, 2007 06:20 pm (UTC) (Link)
One would think a doctor would
Someone smart once said "The more we know - the more we realise we know nothing"

Or something like that...

I say someone smart because I googled the quote and it is attributed to Socrates, Yeats, Buddha(!), and a whole bunch of other people I've never heard of.

I am glad you're feeling better
Thanks :)
laaalaaa From: laaalaaa Date: January 29th, 2007 07:07 pm (UTC) (Link)
Could be stress. I had a really bad bout of it once where I couldnt even stand because I was so short of breath, I still remember lying flat on the call centre floor gasping for air and there was nothing wrong with me! I felt like I was going to die though, went on for weeks. Glad its nothing serious though, hope your 'infection' goes soon! xx
nuala From: nuala Date: January 30th, 2007 03:31 pm (UTC) (Link)
Stoopid NHS. Glad you're feeling better, though. *hugs*
femaletrickster From: femaletrickster Date: January 31st, 2007 03:05 pm (UTC) (Link)
Today is January 31, so I hope you're feeling MUCH better!..
Last few days I was in similar situation: different diagnosis, but the same thoughts about death, and high fever, and painfull right side (but below - I thought of liver), and also too much TV...
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